Happy birthday

B'day - a synonym for 'the happiest day' of life every year. Who would not enjoy that day? Who would ponder if they are actually happy that this day few years back they were born or sad coz year by year dey r nearing their death ? Its after all their b'day !
What significance does this day play in ones life? I strongly believe its a day when people , friends or foes, whom i know actually for a moment think about me. They might be blessing or cursing me but the fact is they remember me dis day, determining the truth of our very existence .Whats the fun in leading a life where no 1. bothers me, thinks about me and worst of all knows me ? When I was a kid my parents used to buy me new clothes, new school bag, new pencil box, new water bottle etc. I used to think and plan about the next bday the very next day of my bday. It was fun. Mum used to prepare my fav. dishes 'gazar ka halwa' and ' dahi wada' being on top of d unending list. Neva used 2 sleep d day b4 and waited for mum n dad to wish me at 12 wid presents, d gifts were more fascinating than anything else those days. The school b'day songs, the chocolate distribution session, the bday party,those far distant phone calls from relatives, the small little gifts !! i envy myself when i think about my bday wen i ws a kid.

Now, that am post 20, i still wonder if am matured enough to take care of myself and others? Its been 20 looooong years and it seems like just yesterday wen i learned my first cycling lessons , my dad running beside me, holding the cycle. And now it so happens that i have to learn my 2 n 4 wheeler lessons myself ! Now, my bdays have different meanings. They dont only mean a fun filled day. I no more wait for the presents. I make a bday resolution on every bday. Those resolution which i rarely follow but those generally being the lesson taught by life that year. Deceit, betrayal, lies etc used to hurt me few years down the line but now i am accustomed to such acts. The whole year I work, study and lead a mechanical life. The only day when i think about myself is on my b'day. Even busier people than me take out few moments of their life and invest it in wishing me. Thats the most valuable present which i would love to treasure. That is what i think real bday gifts are - 'my loved ones' It builds the feeling of loving and being loved in me. It makes me feel that i am not alone in this big world, where people have no time for any1. Life has taught me so many lessons that over each and every bday wen i think about the past i find myself stupid and a silly kid. I in myself always make it a point to grow and compete within me. This year if i have few relationships prevailing i make it a point to add lots more to those prevailing ones by my next bday. This is a challenge i have been accepting from within me. This is what keeps the love kindled in me. It makes me love myself more and this in turn gives me the courage to be confident.
I dont know what would a bday mean to me in few years to come but as of now i take a complete different meaning of bday, as a day of love, trust and satisfaction within me. I would not say dat i don treat my frnds dis day. If i say this, it would sound as if am an oldie. I do enjoy, i treat my frnds, i party but the real meaning of bday in my heart would be the above mentioned facts.
I hope this feeling about a bday grows into a different, more meaningful and finer perspective in future. But as of now >>> " I LOVE MY BDAY" :)